April 27 2018
Life will knock you down as many as it can when given the opportunity, taking you through trials you don’t expect to come out of , through sadness, failures and disappointments but what matters is how one picks themselves up and starts again.
As she stood at her mother’s bedside, watching her lay on that hospital bed Nicole did not expect to be where she was with her mother that faithful day and although she stood there watching helplessly knowing in her heart that her life was never going to be the same again as she witnessed her mother take in her last breath and close her eyes what is made to be eternity. The tears rolled down her cheeks as she knew that it would be the last time she spoke, hugged or kissed her mother. Nicole felt it was end of her life at 9 years old she lost the most important person in her life, “she lost all hope”. Nicole was now forced to go and stay with her aunt who was not ready for the responsibility of taking care of an orphaned child but because no other family members wanted that responsibility, her aunt was intern forced to take her under her care.
As Nicola was growing up life was not an easy road for her, going to school for her was just another day (when she could go to school) as she was popular but all for the wrong reasons, now that she had given up on life because it was unbearable staying with her aunt who ill-treated her and always reminded her of how she would never be worth anything in life, with all hope lost and not one person to turn too Nicole remembered her mother and the verse she used to always read her as a young girl, which was from the book of PSALMS 121 “THE LORD IS YOUR HELPER AND KEEPER NO MATTER WHAT THE SITUATION IS” this made her stronger and she never gave up. She picked up the pieces of her life and when she old enough she managed to get a job and she was able to move out of her aunt’s house and sent herself to collage with the help of GOD and always expecting happiness and joy in her life. Although she went through hard times growing Nicole always is grateful for that cause it made her stronger.
“If you expect and accept the bad in this life you will never see the light after the end of the tunnel, but if you expect and accept the good then you will always see the light after the tunnel.”
This story about Nicole is something a lot of orphaned children experience, some even worse but at the end of the day one should know that the LORD looks after his children and that this life we live today has its own expectations but if you have great expectations and you believe in yourself and that you worth much more, no matter how difficult your situation is, you will always rise above it, by never giving up and surrounding yourself with people who uplift and encourage you at all times.
April 14 2018
My beloved Nessa
Your smile and laughter are truth to God’s existence
Your unwavering fire for life burns so bright inside of you
Your thirst and hunger for success is the kind that will move mountains
The purity of your heart is a testament that humanity still lives
And yet tonight I saw your insecurities through your eyes
I felt your anger and rage rush through your veins and the palms of your hands
I heard the fear in your voice as you told me how he made you feel unwanted
I sensed your doubt, as you asked me if you would ever be good enough for him, for them
And this is my love letter to you Nessa
You are loved and treasured
Not by all
But by the few you have privileged to feel your fire and hear your carefree laughter
You are gold
The rare kind that will be found on the golden crowns worn in heaven
You are brave and choose to match on even up until the end of the war
Yes, you are broken but don’t need any mending.
You are a radiant beauty
The kind that God boasts about
You are grace
Overflowing from untapped rivers
You are strength the kind that has never been seen
And when you feel yourself drowning in the pool of anxiety and insecurities
Feel yourself grasping for straws in tight claustrophobic places
where you are too full of life to fit into
That you are loved and more than enough
Just as your creator made you
So if no man has taken the time to write a love letter to you
I’m here to remind you
That you don’t need a love letter from him, from them,
My letter is always second best to the first
That God wrote to you. x